I know I am not as street smart. My mind is pretty straightforward looking at most of the things. Despite turning 24 in 8 months, I think I'm still very naive, so naive that I could not stand my own naivety. And yet I just can't grow up. Why am I just not as smart? Why do I need to put on so much hard work for so little acheivements, when other people just need to snap, and they can get what they want? I have over the years learnt to see it from another angle, learnt to take things easier, learnt to accept it with a more open mind. But am I giving false perception to myself? Is mediocrity ever that satisfying?
Maybe I am greedy. Maybe I am yearning for something I know I can never have. But sometimes it's just too difficult to get people to recognise the hard work and effort you put in. Am I doing justice to myself?
I feel overwhelmed. Things around me have been testing my limits and worse, I feel I am reaching the tolerance limit. Getting sick of the routine for 8 freaking years, want some change in life now. Readjustment of priorities in life? I don't know.
