argh... whats wrong with my nose ler... really cant understand. For so many years already.. is there a hole in my sinus or what?! Can't imagine how my future will be.. with a inconsistently leaky nose.. leaking whenever it likes.. even after I took a short nap, it didnt improve. And believe me, I finished about 3 packets of tissue papers for that. For goodness sake, hope I am not thinking too much and it won't develop into some kind of illness that would jeopardize my work in the future.. haha... Had a conversation with this very old and very close friend this afternoon... really feel very bad for not being able to help her solve her problem but sitting in front of my comp helplessly listening to her problems. Well she has made her choices, but choices can be changed and its better than regretting for the rest of one's life... Feel grateful that I have more wonderful and understanding parents who allow their children to pursue their interests --> but they won't care if there's any problems we face with regards to our choices. Well, true enough --> we have to be responsible for what we do, and what we choose. If you get yourself into the mess, then you get yourself out of the mess. Fair enough ya.. To J: Always believe in yourself. Don't let the view of others affect how you think about yourself. Yes, certain comments might be helpful and certain comments are just meant to be demoralizing. This is the real world. Just have to learn to distinguish and filter out the good from the bad. Choices are to be made throughout your life, and there bound to be mistakes made. Afterall, no one is perfect. Though I know now that the problem does not lie with you, you have to be even tougher and prove to him that you are matured enough to decide for what you want. This is your life! Have been revising Physical chemistry the whole day by doing the Worked Examples (haha.. overdued self assignment actually) and trying some of them from the Atkin's Textbook. Now brain is saturated and going to crystallize... (Wonder what kind of things will crystallize, hope not the calculus stuffs from the module. Argh... Test tomorrow!!! Evening paper summore. Hope I won't fall asleep doing the paper (giving up because of having absolutely no idea what the question is talking about) Went for interview for the holiday activities... Thinking back, really doubt whether I had made a good decision. Now that not even a single trace of my holiday schedule is confirmed and I am getting myself into all this. Sigh, after all I realised I am not a very good planner of how I want to live my life. Things always do not turn out to be what I have expected in the beginning. Maybe the desire to have fun and enjoy life digress my mind away? Can't imagine now that I have joined so many activities in my first year. Time to settle down and seek some tranquility for my mind. I think it's getting stressed up enough. Nowadays my capacity to hold my anger and temper is running short. No idea why tho, possibly because it is not calm enough? Still thinking if I should join the Buddhist Society next semester and go for the Meditation classes.... Generally it has not been as hot today as the previous days. Hope the humidity level can remain for some more time to at least bring down the heat. Raining is good! ;) It at least cleanses the polluted air and tame the fires raging in the dried forests of Malaysia and Indonesia (and also certain bush areas in Singapore). Hope not many people are affected in terms of respiratory problems. Three weeks more, after the equinox, the rainy days will return. Can't wait for them to arrive! Okayz, migraine is setting in. Time to sleep and get started for the next half of the second sem. To all my peers, 加油！ がんばって! Alles Gute vor allem Erfolg! Add lots and lots of oils and Ace your mid terms. Show your Professors that their papers can be conquered.
