Did I ever announce that adulthood sucks?
If no, I wish to make the announcement now. Yes, announcement.
ADULTHOOD SUCKS
And how ironic it is for when I was young I had always long to be an adult. Because adults have all the freedom to decide for what they want to do in their lives. What I did not realize, is that with this freedom comes great responsibility. Adulthood is just not as simple as I have once imagined when I was still young and naive. There are just so many things to consider and there are just so many crossroads in life. Sometimes I just want to run away from all this, but where can I run to? You can run, but you can't hide. Yeah well said. Time to face the truth of the cruelty of this world.
Certain incidences that happened in the past weeks have led me towards wondering how cruel the real world can be at times. A Chinese proverb always says that we depend on parents at home but we would depend on friends when not. (在家靠父母,在外靠朋友) But well my advice is, unless the friendship has been through the test of time and sincerity, do not expect too much from new friends. And never take friendships for granted, for you would never know what happens next. Unfortunately some people builds friendship out of convenience. You are only called a friend when you are of some use to them. Otherwise, you do not worth even a single cent.
Don't worry. Nothing has happened to me. Just some random thoughts. So cherish all the friendships that you are sure is sincere. These are the precious ones. Learn to appreciate, and there's more to come in Life. This is not an easy thing at all to learn though.
Is selfishness a form of self defence mechanism? Does it lie dormant in every individual and surfaces on different situations depending on the character of the person? The cruelty of the truth of Life tells me so. And a constant reminder to self about thoughtfulness for others has from time to time landed me on the verge of compromising too much - so much so that my own preference might have been forgone. Is it worth it at the end of the day? And do I deserve this after such compromise? Am I expecting too much in return? Should I even expecting returns from compromising into something?
Maybe I am just born to be taken for granted. Who cares anyway. Maybe I'll just be labelled as another person who is sensitive, calculative and narrow minded 小器鬼.
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