Seriously, I do not really know what to blog about. So many things happened since I departed Freiburg on 4 August, and I have been busy up till this very moment. SO busy that I can't even imagine that. Maybe to make up with the total slacking for the past 8 months?
Or maybe I shall say, I have too much things to blog about, I don't know where to start?
Whatever it is, this is the end of the second week of my 7th Semester. And it seems to me that I am once again in my 2nd Year. With just one (rather important, and I, too, am looking at it with a relatively high priority) commitment and probably one of the most important projects whose results would determine my future career path. As the intensity and hence stress level increases, I would have to take each and every single one of them as a challenge to my patience and efficiency. Don't think I have been doing a good work so far as a start but I shall persevere and continue to give my best.
As for my honours project, will be starting first hand wet lab experiment by next week. And yet, I don't think I am very ready for it. Definitely haven't been doing a good job in my literature research week and feeling doomed. My project senior or mentor (I dunno how i should call it) is also a busy person who has other commitments out of NUS. Guess I'll be left pretty much alone but it should be an opportunity rather than a challenge. :)
Met Frau N today by coincidence at YIH and apparently there's this AGM about society I used to be part of. Not that I have done a lot for this society that I deserve an invitation (I don't expect an invitation from them as well.), she seemed surprised that I did not know anything about it, and neither have I received any news as well. This is something not to be taken as an offence at all for me, for I know clearly I am not a welcomed person there. To them I am someone who only talks but never executes. Someone who only gives empty promises. Someone who is not well liked by quite a number in the group. (This is definitely true, forlornly and unfortunately proven by my one and only comrade of one semester while overseas)
Whatever misunderstandings that they might hold against me, I have moved on and would prefably want to have nothing to do with them anymore. I made a big mistake and could do nothing to undo what has been done. Everyone learns from a lesson I guess.
As for this unfortunate comrade with whom I spent one semester overseas together with, I regret that things become what it is as of now, but I have nothing to lose. Afterall I am the one being used and manipulated most of the time, I feel relieved that I am no longer your concern. The only reason why I bore with this earlier on was because there were only 2 of us from the same home uni and I did not want to make things ugly. But some people just have the thickness of face to ask for a foot when you give them an inch, and expect you to equip them continually with information coupled with possible explanations to show your understanding about how a society as equally foreign to you works.
A simple suggestion of cooking for each other, and take turns every alternate day, leads to a question on the next other day, in the middle of the day, saying this:
"Are you going to cook for us tonight?"
Notice the red highlighted word. Maybe some of you would not see this as a problem, but I got a shock. Maybe I am too sensitive, I don't know. But based on how much I understand this person till then, I laughed. Joke of the Century.
Then again, I once thought, if there are so many people from this particular group does not like me, it must have been my own problem. Or is there a simpler one-word hypothesis to this?
By the way, this one word is called Nationality.
Not all, of course. I was well taught in my JC back then in GP: No sweeping statements. But seriously, not all. Just some typical examples that seem to reflect a similar kind of mentality and thinking that can be specially correlated to a particular nationality. But I still do have great friends of this nationality. They is total coolness.
Bitched a lot today. Think I am stressed. Sorry ah. Try not to do it again. Good night.
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