Thoughts of a Rodent

Before I start anything first of all, Belated Merry Christmas (or Cheesemus) to everyone who bothers to read this boring blog. It's been some time since the last updates isnt it. Well nothing much tho. Now rotting back at home growing mushrooms with fatty acids and triglycerides as the main ingredients, sleep and eat and sleep and eat... of course there is also output other than continual input. But overall.... I don't think I need to use words to describe the effects of such wonderful desirable behaviour.

Sometimes I wonder if we always like to live in dilemma. When I was young, I wish I could be an adult very soon. But now as I am approaching adulthood (yeah maybe I am in denial but screw it, I am not a full-fledged adult. Muahaha.) I wish I could be younger once again. Really missed the innocence and naivety of childhood. Minus the driving license and minus the liberty I have now of course. When I was away, I wish I am home. And when I am home, sometimes I do wish I am away. It's not that you don't like your home lar. Maybe used to the independence already after spending 7 years all alone. And people around you would think they still understand you, but actually you know they don't. But they assume so. Hmm nevermind. I guess certain things are difficult to be described by words. I am by no means a linguist or whatsoever. England no powder full. China also no powder full. Germany not even a slight tinge of powder. Yay, world peace.

(Disclaimer: The statements above bear no insinuation in any way against anyone. It is meant to be in general. Please read it with a pinch of salt. If you still choose to be offended after reading this, then screw you. It is my personal blog, and you have been warned.)

Anyway, yeah. So now at crossroads again. 1 1/2 years before graduation and I am already thinking about what to do thereafter. 3 years of bond-serving is definite.

And thereafter?

No one really knows. Even myself. Postgraduate? It's almost certain that I'll pursue one. But where when and how? It can be said that there's a side objective for me going to Germany as an exchange student - to see how is it being a student there. At least for now, spending a month of language immersion left me very good impressions of the place and I am looking forward towards going back again, now for 5 times the initial duration of stay. I think it's a new challenge also to live in a non-English speaking environment. You learn more about the language, you learn more about the culture and the people. That is what being global is all about.

Ok, the last sentence of the paragraph above sounds very NUS, I know. But I think the experience will really worth it and it'll be priceless! Oh so what's about the crossroads? Will I still pursue my postgraduate in Germany (or perhaps any of the German speaking countries such as Austria or Switzerland) or will I end up the same place again, if I found what I really want and love to do (some of you might already have guessed what it is. You are probably right.) and it takes on greater priority than postgraduate studies? Then again it conflicts with my childhood dream. Of what childhood dream do I speak? If you already knew, good for you. If you do not know yet, I am not going to say it here.

Yup have been pondering about these stuffs over again these few days other than rotting at home and trying to find something to do.

Any ideas and suggestions?