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Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Living in Mediocrity
Is it good to be mediocre?

I know I am not as street smart. My mind is pretty straightforward looking at most of the things. Despite turning 24 in 8 months, I think I'm still very naive, so naive that I could not stand my own naivety. And yet I just can't grow up. Why am I just not as smart? Why do I need to put on so much hard work for so little acheivements, when other people just need to snap, and they can get what they want? I have over the years learnt to see it from another angle, learnt to take things easier, learnt to accept it with a more open mind. But am I giving false perception to myself? Is mediocrity ever that satisfying?

Maybe I am greedy. Maybe I am yearning for something I know I can never have. But sometimes it's just too difficult to get people to recognise the hard work and effort you put in. Am I doing justice to myself?

I feel overwhelmed. Things around me have been testing my limits and worse, I feel I am reaching the tolerance limit. Getting sick of the routine for 8 freaking years, want some change in life now. Readjustment of priorities in life? I don't know.

Maybe it's just the songs. Maybe it's just now.
posted by JE @ 10:52   0 comments
Monday, February 25, 2008
Dream
Do dreams ever reflect what is deep hidden within your subconscious state? Perhaps it does. Or perhaps it is just an imaginary hope.

Dreamt of arriving at a city in Switzerland while I was in a train. Cannot remember which city it is, but I am sure it is located in Switzerland. Maybe just some random thoughts that have surfaced.

A hint, perhaps, at where I should look forward towards for my graduate studies?

Am almost certain now that I am not going to continue my graduate studies here. If I can get into where I am targetting to get in, that is. Need a break from my 17 continuous years of study to get some new inspiration. Aspiration. Respiration. Perspiration. Constipation. Precipitation.

Ok the last 2 words in the last paragraph were complete nonsense. You can conveniently ignore their existence.
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Sunday, February 24, 2008
独孤九剑
有时候,文字并不能完全表达出某一种感受。在如此情况下,不用可以用笔墨形容,亦能展示出这种感觉的存在。

”别有幽愁暗恨生,此时无声胜有声“

也如独孤九剑的其中一招,无招胜有招也。
posted by JE @ 00:22   0 comments
Saturday, February 23, 2008
难得
夜阑人静。

而过于平静的心情也随之沉入谷底。

幸好这次的谷底也并非很深,或许也可以说,只是沉思了好一段时间了吧。

人生自出娘胎,遇到的抉择时段不少。到了如此重要的转捩点却也不多。所以,有时想多了些也是在所难免吧。

或许,也是时候重新整顿生活的点滴。什么重要,什么不太稀罕,重新整顿一下,寻找自己要走的方向吧。
posted by JE @ 00:19   0 comments
Friday, February 22, 2008
Congratulations
to Singapore on winning the bid to host Youth Olympic Games 2010. I guess now I feel the same way as it was during the Commonwealth Games 1998 with Kuala Lumpur as the host city. It doesn't matter whether it is Malaysia or Singapore, it shows that the Western world does have some confidence towards Asia or more specifically, Southeast Asia. It is a good news not just for Singapore, but also for the entire region of ASEAN.

Not that I will be involved in anyway in organizing the event, but I know there will be much more things ahead. This is just the beginning of everything.

So now, what's next? Kuala Lumpur 2020 Olympics? I think Penang can also contest as a candidate city. Winning this key bid would signify a worldwide recognition towards Malaysia on becoming a fully developed country. But how far are we from our target dreams?

First, I guess, we have lots of internal issues to attend to. There comes to a point in which we would have to grow with the Zeitgeist (this is an English word, borrowed from the German language) and not just continually politicizing and dwelling with the past, constantly arguing on matters handled during the post-war independence era. The nation is already 50 years old, it's really time to move on.

That, of course, would depend directly and significantly on how the polls are decided on 8 March across the entire aspiring nation. How would the people decide?
posted by JE @ 08:54   0 comments
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Not a pure Han Chinese(汉族)?
This subject has been amusing my simple little mind with regards to my genetic traits. Knowing at a level of 100% certainty that my predecessors for at least the last 3 generations are pure Han Chinese.

However, ever since I came to Singapore in 2000, I have been questioned by different people now and then. Suggestions have been thrown that I am Eurasian, Thai, Vietnamese or even Burmese. Surprisingly, when I was in Germany, I was mistaken as a Japanese (this is not surprising given that majority of the Western European population seems to be highly ignorant of the Eastern Hemisphere and Asia probably consists of only a handful of countries, namely Japan, China, India, Pakistan and Thailand), a mainland Chinese (well if they are ignorant enough not to know that Southeast Asia is mostly tropical, many of them wouldnt know that Overseas Chinese exist, and the fact that you are from Malaysia and is not a Malay but a Chinese, this throws them into a deep well of confusion. Probably thanks to our thousands of years of culture based on the Confucius philosophy), and guess the third most frequently guessed traits?

The first word they spoke to me when they saw me was "Sawasdee?". Interestingly, this came from a Portuguese master student who lived in Bangkok for 2 years. She said that she thought I was Thai the moment she saw me. Another such comment came from another German man who seems to frequently visit Thailand and said I "look like the Thai boys". .... Hahaha OMG dunno what he was doing in Thailand lah haha.

It was really eye opening and jaw dropping to hear those comments. Never in my life have I imagined myself possessing such genetic traits, for if I really do, that would be how interesting.
posted by JE @ 15:08   2 comments
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