Discovered the high degree of compatibility between the mood of jazz and the hour between 11pm to 1am. All thanks to Chien Wen for posting If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys. The mood is really there and it got me to calm down after a whole day of hustle and bustle in the lab and in the lecture theatres.
Realized that face washer really helps a lot in keeping myself refreshed and momentarily rejuvenated as I see one whole load of lethargy and tiredness get washed away together with the excessive sebum in the colloidal aqueous solution. But the dehydrating effect on my skin was also rather irritating, although it didnt stay long. Sometimes I wonder if it does promote excretion of more sebum after that.
Don't know whether I am really lacking of calibre, or am I just having a low self-esteem. Can't seem to convince myself to do a number of tasks lately. Maybe I need to do some calibration first? Yes, pun intended from the earlier word of 'calibre'.
Does one has to show it out when he cares? I might seem to be ignorant, but I do care. I might seem not to be bothered, but I do. And I do not have to show everyone that I do. Maybe I am partly autistic in that I need a large room of emotional privacy. But I am definitely not a person who could fluently orally express my thoughts. Maybe I am just not trained to do that. I talk a lot at times, and I just talk. An empty barrel makes the most noise without substance. Am I emo? Haha... some people say I do. Maybe it's just the way I try to express my inner thoughts.
Experiment failed totally today. How nice. Precursor just decomposed. Primary analysis: Probably could be attributed to absence of the capping agent. Really learning new stuffs each day.
Was pondering about priorities in life after graduation. Responsibility (i.e. serve my 3 year working bond), or Passion (i.e. continue with Graduate Studies)? Asked Supervisor, asked Academic Mentor who is also a Lecturer for one of my modules, asked cousins, asked brother, asked parents. Actually it is quite interesting surveying different viewpoints from different individuals.
Feeling so bored, writing my resume now. A bit early I know. But what the heck.
Well I was very much inspired into scientific research ever since my first ever presentation during the lab group meeting last Wednesday. Soon after over the weekend the Royal Swedish Academy of Sciences and Karolinska Institutet announced the selected Nobel Laureates for the year 2007. I think they really deserve the prize based on their contributions to the mankind (expect for Al Gore winning the Nobel Peace Prize for his Inconvenient Truth... kinda lame but nevermind), and I am just ever more inspired ever since. Ya ya laugh at me all you want.
Anyway, had a wonderful night last night over the midnight, and one whole day today! hahaha.... Spent like more than half a day in lab without my lab mates knowing its my special day. Feel so mischievous :P
Just wanna thank all those who care :) I have wishes all the way from Russia and America!
As cliche as it might sound, I am posting a question here for my readers to ponder about. In fact I think I did mention about this my prehistoric posts. Feel free to contribute your answers if you are interested.
Q: If there's one and only one constant in this universe, what would it be?
Probably only one among the few readers of my this blog would understand exactly what I am talking about. Lately the spinning attack is back, whereby the perceived surroundings would all of a sudden spin around me at the rate of 0.4 - 0.5 Hertz and carries on for about 10 seconds.
When I lie down on bed before sleep, the spin accelerates to about 1 Hertz, and carries on for up to 20 seconds.
Maybe I should consult a doctor soon. Maybe I have a brain tumour or something. Muahaha
My mind is so blank now I do not really know how to describe what am I going into.
Ok maybe I am tired. Anyway it is a contradiction itself saying that my mind is blank when I have so much things in mind now.
Maybe I am trying to avoid thinking the stuffs.
Then again, I have been kind of cannot-be-bothered towards them lately.
Am I stressed? Or I really can't be bothered?
Observations show I behave at a higher tendency towards the spectrum closer to that of the former. Coz I am eating a lot again.
Maybe I should find out more about calming my mind and calmness of mind. One week break is a fallacy and certainly has not put my mind to a delicious Kit Kat.
